It is what it is.
Going through and reading my old posts. One word comes to mind….DUMBASS
After seeing you three tonight and being through what I went through today, I miss my life. I’m not the same person I was and I think it may be because everyone left me. After seeing you three tonight, the positivity, the willing to be better, and the overall glow of happiness came back, after like 5 minutes of talking. I miss you all. You all left me here, and I get it you had to move on and you’re having the time of your lives, and after CSU today I’m ready to start the time of my life. But, it was being surrounded by people like you guys that made me who I was when I actually liked myself and my life, and you guys that made me want to be better and actually think. And every passing hour that I don’t talk to you that glow is fading and by tommorrow I’ll be the silent bitchy negative girl who stands in the hallway surrounded by people and stares at a locker and goes straight to class from passing period. I won’t be myself again until I can see you guys everyday or find someone like you. It’s pathetic that I need others to actually motivate me and make me a happy person, but I do. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t do this on my own. I just hope you guys have time for me from now on. Because I can’t handle it anymore, i’m on the verge of a breakdown and it’s walls are cracking quickly. I need you. I just wish you needed me.
omg this killed me
I finally told my parents that i drink…….
not as bad as i thought.